My life is going well after my D. I stick around on these boards because I genuinely virtually like many of the people. The boards saved my literal life. And I try to pay it back. As part of that I lost every once in awhile. Tell my story and people can take what they like and leave the rest.
As I sit in a heated residence with the electricity on, I reflect back with deep gratitude for this group, their messages and support. If it were not for these kindnesses I would not have found my way out of infidelity and I likely would have given in to the trauma and taken my own life.
When infidelity "wins", it鈥檚 a tragedy. The world would have lost my impact. I don鈥檛 claim to do a lot or enough. But I survived and I get up every day and ask myself what I can do to make the world a bit better? And that鈥檚 the small sliver of light that exwh would have extinguished had I not survived.
What have I done after surviving? Not much by human standards I guess. Share a meal with a young unhoused person. Give gloves and a tank of gas to a struggling neighbor? Host simple meals and gatherings? Be willing to teach people how to do things I know how to do that they don鈥檛.
Currently I am with someone helping them while they are waiting for serious life sustaining surgery related to serving their country.
Despite EXWH鈥檚 best efforts to literally do what he said he would do ("destroy me if I left him"), I have managed with the help of others and what some call "my higher power" to stay fed, clothed, and housed. So the darkness did not win. And it鈥檚 not gonna win today.
I wish everyone on this site peace, joy, love, impact and much happiness.
